Coming clean..

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Its 3am in the morning now and seriously at this hour I should be sleeping and yes I am terribly sleepy now. But no, I aint sleeping now cause I am having this sudden adrenaline rush to blog! At such odd hours :S

Here I am back to blogspot again, didnt have much enthusiasm to blog with xanga! Maybe I am just lazy = ) Pardon the bad grammar or speeeeling in this post if there is any, its 3 am in the morning anyway!

I think I am sick of pretending that everything is alright. In reality it isnt. I thought I was over it, it was the case until I saw the picture of you and her together..that makes my heart ache. and thats when I know things are not fine between us. or at least for me. I thought I've moved on, I thought everything was alright.

I remember you said "I'll do whatever it takes, To turn this around, I know what's at stake, I know that I've let you down, And if you give me a chance, Believe that I can change, I'll keep us together whatever it takes"

It hurts me to know that you move on so fast. That it only took months to replace what we used to have. Maybe just maybe its just me hanging on to something that doesnt work anymore.

I've been acting like everything is alright, that I've let go and moved on just so... I don't feel the pain.

Maybe just maybe acknowledging the pain is actually easier to take than pretending you're alright after all. I think I am giving up. It's time to move on really. and this time, its for real.

Moving on.


Hannah said...

babe, trust me you'll get over it soon. we're here for ya!
Always and forever will be! =D